Today....today....well it was not the best day I can tell you that. Was working outside today in the heat. Was hot as hell, but endured it. The heat isn't the thing that was the problem though. I have this skin irritation with high changes to the temp. The sweat of the heat cause my skin to become really irritated, same with the cold. So, im practically suffering out there trying to get the stuff done, so my mother gets pissed cause im complaining alittle. So...yeah we don't talk for awhile. I can't get mad at her though. She is going through something too with her voice. It's not caused my smoking...cause she doesn't smoke.
My grandpa is back in the hospital for his breathing. He is on the oxygen, but still does that stuff that goes on your teeth...I forget what the hell it is called. It is annoying to tell somebody that what you are doing is bad for you...but they still persist on doing it. He has been back and forth to the hospital...and he still drinks....omg...I don't know what to do anymore or what to think. Does he want to live? I try to ignore it, like it is not really happening, but it is.
Being back home I thought would be different, but you just have to deal and suck it up. My father finally got a job and can start paying child support to my mother again. That will help her out greatly. She goes through alot...and still deals with me. Sometimes I don't know if im a good enough son. Why do I have to argue and cause trouble? Hell, I don't know. Sometimes it's as if two people or personalities are inside of me...one bad and good. Just don't know myself enough yet I guess, which is stupid and scary.
College starts back next Mon. so I have time to prepare. I have new roommate, so I should call them and get to know them right? Lets just hope they are cool. Gotta find where my classes are too, before school starts...that will help me out in the long run. Focus...focus....to on work and not entertainment again. My summer grades were good, but lets hope I can follow through this year, it only gets tougher in engineering they say.
Are tattoos bad? I was talking to Demi about them. lol...I was thinking about getting Eyptian Symbols or spells on my right arm. My mother says no...and she will prolly find someway to find out if I got them or not. I was going to put some African symbols on my right arm or something, but whatever. lol Getting a tattoo on my ass is out of the question....like yall was thinking that.
AIM is tight...been on there alot lately since I stopped with the online gaming thing. It cost less too, because no phone bill and having to call multiple people at once. Still feels like the game though sometimes, because we all talked and had fun. AIM is the same way too it seems.
Well, that is my ranting for today. Thank you for putting up with it. | 
Getting tattoos....soon too. lol My friend just got some more...cost him like $60, so I said I would go with him next time. lol Get one on my arm. He said it hurts like hell....he had to hold a nerf ball (WHIMP). Ahahah fuck that....wait utill I do it...ill be worst than him. 
